A Look Of Blue

  

Life

One of my blog readers from another blog (oh yes, there are more!) told me that this was a good post. I didn't realize I hadn't put it on here, so here you go!

This is what I have been thinking about lately. They may be wise or they may be stupid, either way they will probably help you to learn a lot more about me.

I learned something about someone I didn't know before-It's nice to learn a little bit more about a person. It would be nice to learn something new about someone every week. We will see.

Communication. Communication is the key to everything. It is in all we do and experience! Not to mention every relationship you will ever be in (family or friend wise). Communicate and your life (and relationships) will be a lot more successful.

Friends are everything! Especially the ones I have in Colorado. I would probably be a totally different person without them. They are the BESTEST!! A good chunk of my friends (8 of them to be exact) went bowling yesterday and it was SO much fun! No one cared about the scores, or how good or bad someone did. We just went to be together and have fun.

Regret things that are worth regretting over. Otherwise, don't worry too much about them. I think I have been doing that with an ex and all it does is make it worse.

Experience all you can experience. My living in Colorado experience has been so awesome so far. I would have never thought I would be where I am, and feel the way I do about living away from home. I really do like it here! The funny part about this is that even my high school guidance counselor didn't think I would stay here because of being so far from my family. I do miss them but I've gotten the chance to do SO much. Photography, a little bit of traveling, and coming out of my "shell" are just to name a few.

Do things out of the ordinary or out of your comfort zone. Some people think I made a mistake, others think I am right where I need to be, either way I believe everything will come to place. No, I didn't have any programming experience before this and yes, it still scares me a little bit, but I am giving it a chance. I am here to learn (believe it or not) and that is exactly what I want to do.

My new job!

WOOOOHOOO!!! I am SOOOO happy!!! I got a job for the Student Activities Association!! I am the new associate director of programming! Cool huh? I guess good things can come out of a bad week!
Today I signed the papers for my new job. It's so scary thinking I will be working in a whole new department! I am also now going to be actually considered a "leader" of the school. I know it's only the student activities association, but a lot will be riding on me. I will need to find, gather information, and set up many different activities for the students to do. Not only that, but help make the student life at the school, a lot more enjoyable.
Well, in all my nervousness, one of my very close friends wrote me an email full of encouragement. Here is an excerpt :
I know you will do great in the new position. Remember God has called us all for
different purposes, and it appears He needs you as a leader. There is nothing better then an Adorable Christian woman to be good leaders and examples and to get guys (and girls) on the right track. I'm proud of you!
Now I know not all of you that will be reading this are Christian. That's ok though! It felt pretty good to hear those words anyway!

Our Bunny-Ruby

Sooooo.... we got a bunny. She is pretty much the cutest thing ever! She is still a little skidish but is pretty tame already.

Good things

Good things can come out of a bad week! I had such a terrific day! First, this morning I got to school and found out that people saw my pictures and LOVED them. That was sooo exciting! One thing that I have been hoping for for quite some time is getting my photos noticed. Two of the ladies I work with want to buy my prints! It's going to be awesome!
As my day went on, I found out that there is many good solutions to my problem I found out about this week. I still can't talk about it too much. I know a lot of people already know about it, but I will officially talk about it sometime after Saturday.
I just found this quote. After today, I fully believe it!

~~The Law of Karma: `for every event that occurs, there
will follow another event whose existence was caused by the first, and
this second event will be pleasant or unpleasant according as its cause
was skillful or unskillful.'

For the best?

I know it's for the best. I have to believe that to get through this week. I really need to get over some of the stuff that has been happening lately. Between relationships, friendships, and school/work I just wish things would go away. Since they can't, I just need to take them as they come. Everyone keeps telling me that one of the things that happened is for the most part, for the best. It's just really hard to believe that. I try to put my whole heart into all I do and all I get is this.
I was calm and able to take it all in fine before. Now, all I can think of is what is in store for my future. I do know I need to stop moping around. It's not good for me and has never been apart of who I am. Do I wish it was easier? Yes!

Things sort of went down the drain

Something that happened today
I am not going into detail about the things that happened this today. To make a long story short, I will be looking for another job within the week. It's hard to even get past the shock value because of the circumstances. I think I took the "finding out" about this matter rather calmly, much more calmly than the usual "Corn shock value". We will see. I believe the people I am close to, the people that know me, the people I have grown to love (like a family), are looking out for me. With this said, I think there is a light at the end of my tunnel.
Stuff I have been thinking about
I wish I had more time on my hands. There are so many things I would like to get done. For example, I would love to get some of my photos displayed at various places. A few people have mentioned some to me. The places include: a pub, a salon, and the good ole' internet. Maybe it's me. Maybe I am not making time for those types of things. Hopefully Martin Luther King Jr. Day will be a good day to "catch" up.
I wish I knew more. Often times, I feel like I don't know enough about everything. I hate reading (for the most part) and just get so tangled up in other projects, etc that I don't take time to just learn. Sometimes when I go to class, I find myself wondering why I am even there. I love my school for the most part. The teachers *are* great, most of the classes are very worth while, and I get along with almost everyone there. I feel like I really belong there. It's just the knowledge thing. Questions I find asking myself: Do I not learn like others? Do I not care enough? Why are things going in one ear and out the other? I think it's somewhat psychologically. A lot of the time, I don't give myself enough credit. I don't know what my deal is. It just well... sucks. I have even thought about changing majors. When I think of myself actually doing something that totally and fully involves what I am "learning" at school, I kind of shutter. Some of the stuff I do know, I know well. I take time with it and/or it just comes naturally. Why is this? Who knows?

My pictures

Here are some photos that I have taken. You can also view them on: Smach Inc

If you like what you see and would like to see more feel free to comment. I will aslo sell my prints.

A one of a kind teacher

Here are some of the things I will miss about Meg. Maybe we should have a tribute to meg day!?

This is actually a comment I put on Meg's blog just a few minutes earlier.

Hmmmm... Reading WoH's "Things I'll miss about Meg" just made me want to write my own version. Here goes:

Things I'll Miss About Meg 2:

A teacher who makes you want to go to class. I would have never thought I'd take some of the classes I actually did, but knowing the teacher (hmm, who could that be?), made a huge difference! Taking a more advance Biology class just to get a certain teacher? That would be because of Meg. I remember laughing so hard at times! Also, knowing just who was in a classroom because it was full of laughter.:) It's hard to get used to a more dull sense of humor.

A teacher that actually wants you to learn. You tailored your assignments to things we WANTED to learn about, not just things that were in the original syllabus. How many teachers do this? Zilch! You also made sure we learned the material.

No acting. When you thought we did an awesome job with something, we knew it. You never seem to be fake or ever sugar coat things.

Last, you knew (and still know) all about us-not just because you had to. When I came to your classes, I felt so "wanted". I will never forget the specialized assignments just for us. You had me give you a personal tour around my hometown. It was so much fun doing it because it was something I felt you were interested in about me (and one you knew I would like).

Well, I hope this is a good sequel to what WoH had to say. Can I say that the school already doesn't seem the same?

-Thanks for the good times Meg!

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