Things sort of went down the drain

Something that happened today
I am not going into detail about the things that happened this today. To make a long story short, I will be looking for another job within the week. It's hard to even get past the shock value because of the circumstances. I think I took the "finding out" about this matter rather calmly, much more calmly than the usual "Corn shock value". We will see. I believe the people I am close to, the people that know me, the people I have grown to love (like a family), are looking out for me. With this said, I think there is a light at the end of my tunnel.
Stuff I have been thinking about
I wish I had more time on my hands. There are so many things I would like to get done. For example, I would love to get some of my photos displayed at various places. A few people have mentioned some to me. The places include: a pub, a salon, and the good ole' internet. Maybe it's me. Maybe I am not making time for those types of things. Hopefully Martin Luther King Jr. Day will be a good day to "catch" up.
I wish I knew more. Often times, I feel like I don't know enough about everything. I hate reading (for the most part) and just get so tangled up in other projects, etc that I don't take time to just learn. Sometimes when I go to class, I find myself wondering why I am even there. I love my school for the most part. The teachers *are* great, most of the classes are very worth while, and I get along with almost everyone there. I feel like I really belong there. It's just the knowledge thing. Questions I find asking myself: Do I not learn like others? Do I not care enough? Why are things going in one ear and out the other? I think it's somewhat psychologically. A lot of the time, I don't give myself enough credit. I don't know what my deal is. It just well... sucks. I have even thought about changing majors. When I think of myself actually doing something that totally and fully involves what I am "learning" at school, I kind of shutter. Some of the stuff I do know, I know well. I take time with it and/or it just comes naturally. Why is this? Who knows?